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Like [personal profile] snickfic, who I got this from, I'm disappointed in the lack of mpreg as an option. I'm also surprised at how high some things ranked despite only being asked about them once, or not at all (Hot Single Parents, Adopting/Raising a Baby, one of which I'm fine with the placement, the latter of which I would rank much higher). Overall, pretty representative of my tastes, with an emphatic interest in canon or canon-divergent fics vs modern or other such AUs. There are a couple things on here that I flat refuse to read at all, like Actually Unrequited or Break-Ups (even if they get back together), and some I'll only read once in a great while (any variety of school AU).

(go here to sort for yourself, btw)

Top Ten:
1 Body Swapping
1 A/B/O
3 Found Families
3 Friends to Lovers
3 Selfcest (possibly due to time travel)
(around here is where I'd probably put mpreg)
6 Fake Dating/Fake Marriage Accidentally Turns Into Feelings
6 Soulmate Identifying Marks (Tattoo, Red Thread of Fate, etc) ^^^I would actually swap this one and Body Swapping
6 Seemingly Unrequited Pining
6 Hurt/Comfort
10 Magical Connection (Telepathy, etc)
10 Hot Single Parent(s)
here be the rest )
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I am such a procrastinator, but while I'm just as prone to sitting on my phone watching Youtube or playing games as the next person, I will occasionally do something I call the Downward Cleaning Spiral, which makes sense in the moment, but otherwise is equally baffling to both Roommate Tina and myself. For example, my two most recent DCSs happened last night (which prompted this post, and was highly entertaining at the time), and when my parents were visiting in September, which was incredibly frustrating.

My parents had come up to visit for a variety of reasons to do with my mental and emotional state at the time, as well as bringing up stuff they'd gotten from various sisters as they were cleaning out their houses/moving in with husbands that I'd said I wanted. But they were staying with my aunt and uncle in the town next over since there's actually more family living there, and it's more centrally located for everyone. So either they would have to come down here, or I'd have to go up there to see them, and I had had an exhausting day at work, and then done the grocery shopping right after. I was looking forward to just getting clean (I'm a housekeeper, so I felt absolutely gross) and going up to spend the evening with my family/parents.

And then the bathroom flooded, and everything went downhill from there, leading to my rage-cleaning the entire house. Yes, the entire house.

There was so much rage )

*Side-note: two things always happen whenever Tina is out of town for longer than a weekend. First, I do, in fact, do a pretty thorough cleaning of the public areas of the house. I just wasn't planning on doing it all in one day while my parents were visiting. And since she is the fixer in this household, something mechanical breaks when she's gone. I got lucky that time, probably because she was just out of town for an extended weekend, but of things that have gone wrong, the list includes: the heat going out in the middle of winter, the garage door opener dying of old age (I'd actually forgotten this happened until just now - all in the same winter, too), something with the water pipes (although I think we took steps to mitigate what we suspected might break before she left, that time), and most recently our dryer gave up the ghost right before she went home for Christmas.

Yesterday ... yesterday just kind of happened, and is more typical of the Downward Cleaning Spiral (much less rage-inducing/induced, much more bafflement and "it made sense at the time").

from bullet journaling to organizing the laundry cupboard, and just about every random thing in between )

So you see, the DCSs do have a logical progression? And I do try to make the most of them when they happen, because otherwise I rarely have the time, energy, or inclination to get any cleaning done around the house. And my tolerance for a messy house is a lot lower than Tina's, but she's usually the one who starts the cleaning, so I spend a great deal of time at home in general despair of the state of our house but unable to find a spoon to do something about it. But normally when I can spend a spoon on cleaning, it doesn't look anything like a DCS. Those are very distinctive, and outside of when they're actually happening, neither Tina nor I can make any sense over how my brain decides to prioritize what needs to get done in what order and Right Now, Above All Else. I mean, like, I follow the chain of decisions? I just laid it all out there, I can see the thought process.

But, like...why did I have to mop all the floors? I wanted to go spend time with my parents and my out-of-town relatives, why did it have to happen right then? If I'd just mopped the bathroom and waited for a clean towel, I only would have been maybe an hour late, rather than having to cancel altogether. Why the damn light switches? Or, in my more pleasant DCS, why the cupboard? There's not so much a logical stopping point in that one, but recycling the textbooks didn't have to happen right that minute, the cupboard could've lasted until we moved out (whenever that happens)...

There are two distinctive things about my DCSs, the things that make it a DCS rather than just a long or intensive fit of cleaning. First, rather than doing a bunch of separate tasks, like checking items off a to-do list, one thing just seems to lead to another. They were never things I planned on doing at the time but made sense to do it anyway, why put it of? Despite the fact that I had other things I'd been planning to do with my time instead, often things I wanted to do even more. Second, there is always that one random thing that doesn't seem to have anything to do with the list of things I was already doing. Like the light switches and the cupboard, and the pillows.

Fortunately, they don't happen very often - maybe one every couple months? Like I said, the last one was in September. I'll have mini downward cleaning spirals every once in a while, but those tend to only be two or three things at a time, and are easier to break out of if I really want to, not the full-blown DCS of six or seven things chained together where I just can't seem to stop myself. I don't hate them when they happen, with the notable exception of the September one, there's just no rhyme or reason to when they happen. They're weird.

Anyway. More insight into my mental state when I'm cleaning than you probably wanted, but I figured I should probably record the phenomena for posterity's sake. Also it was a reason to make a damn DW post, which I have been meaning to do since the year started and just ... haven't. Hopefully I'll be able to make it a habit again.
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I have never in my life every managed to complete a paper journal, I don't know what made me think I'd be able to keep up with an online one. The last time I wrote in a paper journal I was keeping semi-regularly was April of 2014, which was only about a year before I dropped this one cold turkey. No one should be surprised. It's really sad, because I love the ~look of paper journals? I have a lot of empty, very pretty journals.

Sketchbooks, on the other hand, I've finished a surprising number of? Like, I dug up and flipped through all the sketchbooks I still have possession of, and most of them are finished! Or at least, finished except for two or three pages at the very end, which is good enough for me, honestly. Okay, I just counted them, and it's actually less than that, 5 finished and 6 not, but that's partially because I just got two new ones in the past month, so I'm sticking by my "most are finished" assessment.

I've been getting back into sketching and drawing, lately. This is largely Youtube's fault. I have no idea how I stumbled across him in the first place, but I've been subscribed to [youtube.com profile] DrawWithJazza for a couple of months? And following him led me to a whole bunch of other art channels, like [youtube.com profile] itwentbang (Doodle Date) and [youtube.com profile] MsChlosey (Chloe Rose Art), who are all delightful and hilarious. It got my fingers itching for a pencil again.

So out came the old drawing case (a toolbox with my art supplies from school: charcoal pencils and sticks, graphite pencils, erasers, a couple of inks?), out came my sketchbooks from the back of the unorganized closet, and out came my Amazon wishlist. Most of my old sketchbooks are of the 9x12 spiral bound variety, though I've also got an 11x14, a 5.5x8.5, and a giant 18x24 that was for my college class. The two I'm working in now are a Strathmore softcover multimedia sketchbook, and the 5.5x8.5 Canson Sketch. Flipping through them, I found my two main subjects other than fanart are, to no surprise, maps and fashion, so since everything is spread throughout all of them with no real sense of organization (which is driving me nuts), I've been working on copying things over. The small book is becoming my Fashion Journal - I've got most of the sketches transferred from one of my finished ones, and I'd forgotten how much I'd like the layered looks for a while there. My maps are all going into one of my newer spiral bound books, since it already has a bunch of map icons and stuff in there.

...and this is why I rarely manage to finish a written journal: I've already lost the thread of whatever I was talking about here and can't think of a graceful way to wrap it up, so I'll just end it here, I guess.
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Since the new season is just around the corner, and given everything that's happened in this off-season, and being reminded that I still need to pay last season's pledge, I think it's time to post my new pledge for #HockeyFightsDV for the 2015-2016 season.

Because two of my favorite players are fragile glass babies, I am pledging to donate $1 per game played for both Beau Bennett of the Pittsburgh Penguins and Ryan Murray of the Columbus Blue Jackets. For every 20 games they play (rounded up), I additionally pledge one crocheted baby blanket.

Additional Beau Bennett pledges: $1/goal, $0.50/point, and $0.25/shot, with a bonus $5/hat trick

Additional Ryan Murray pledges: $1/point, $0.50/(credited) takeaway, $0.25/blocked shot

Additional pledge: $10/dick trick (4 goals in one game) scored by any player in the league

As I did last season, all of these pledges will be doubled in the playoffs, with the exception of the baby blanket pledge: I will make one baby blanket per series either player plays at least two games in.

I will again be donating both money and blankets to SafeNest in Las Vegas, which is the largest charity for domestic violence and abuse in southern Nevada.
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I don't remember if I ever did a who-I-am post back when I first got this thing, but since I'm going to try and use this a little more often (my journalling on-off phases last years sometimes), I figured it's probably due for a revamped post in any case. There's a condensed version of this in my profile, jsyk.

All About Me: RL, Fandom, and Sports-wise )

Well! That's a lot more than I've written about myself in a long time! The t;dr version: I'm soon to graduate college, I crochet when I'm bored (which is basically all the time), most of my fandom stuff is on twitter or tumblr, and I'm super into the hockey thing right now :)

Find me places!
[twitter.com profile] helenorvana - best place to actually interact with me
[instagram.com profile] helenorvana - mostly photos of crochet projects and clouds
[tumblr.com profile] helenorvana - most of my fandom flailing, mostly via reblogs
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Basically just sweeping out the cobwebs on this thing, 'cause I've got a feeling I'll be using this place more often nowadays, depending on how things go down elsewhere on the internet.  Oh, lord, do I even remember what all I've got on here?
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I have so many of them, it's a little hard to keep track sometimes. Big and small, impossible and feasible, all of it.

For as long as I can remember, I've dreamed of going into space. The stars are some of the most beautiful things I've ever seen, and I am such a scifi girl - Star Wars and Star Trek, Andromeda, all of it. I wanted to be an astronaut for the longest time. I don't exactly want to do that as a career anymore, but give me the opportunity to fly to the moon or Mars, or hell, just sit in orbit for an hour, and I will grab it with all four limbs and never let it go. There are so many things on Earth that you just can't grasp from pictures, you have to see in person, y'know? How 'bout the Earth itself? :P

My other great love is books. Books and solitude and quiet. Some of my fondest memories from growing up were spent in the library. And you get to tell people to be quiet, too! This is the one I'm working towards, working as a librarian. If I could intern at the Library of Congress - nevermind actually work there - that would be a dream come true.

I've got lots of smaller-yet-unrealistic ones, too. Visit all of the world's largest/most beautiful caves, win the lottery and pay off all of my family's various debt, being a famous author, having an exhibit of my photography...lots of little things, but fun things to work on. :)
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I honestly don't even remember your name? You're an old, rotund gentleman with a deep, bellowing voice who wore shorts all the time and delivered a four-hour lecture completely from memory, no notes, no references - nothing. And you are amazing. I took the class mainly because otherwise I'd have to take two separate classes for the price of one category, and I figured "Eh, a four-hour lecture on a Friday afternoon can't be that bad." And I was right!

I'm glad you had the breaks, trust me, I needed them. But every second you spoke I was enraptured. Up until your class I'd had my heart set on going into library science, working with books and quiet, and to be honest, that's still my ultimate goal. But you helped me fall in love with politics. Not the politicking - trust me, I have no desire whatsoever to become a politician. But the process and the theory of politics, the science... I've always found politics to be fascinating, and have spent the better part of my life tinkering with various different forms of governments for dozens of stories I want to write, but I never thought about truly studying politics, doing it for my career. I'm honestly still not entirely sure what I would do with a degree in politics? But I'm going to try, and I'm going to master it, and I can't thank you enough for pointing me in that direction.
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Title: Triple Lines of Grey
Author: [livejournal.com profile] dancinbutterfly
Characters/Pairings: Beau Bennett/Sidney Crosby/Evgeni Malkin
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~3,700
Warnings: dubious consent that comes with heat fic, a/b/o dynamics

Summary: Tropey omegaverse heatsex on a plane with a dash of "fuck or die" thrown in for spice.

Notes: Dancinbutterfly! I've worked with her before on another big bang, I think for Captain America, so imagine my surprise when I find out who claimed me this time around! We butted heads a little bit in the making of this, but the fic is definitely for the better because of it. All I wanted was sex on a plane, and boy did she deliver! She even gave me fisting! :)


Length: 25 minutes

Or download here (right-click, save-as)
You can also find it on AO3
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Fic Title: I'll keep a bonfire for you
Author: [livejournal.com profile] 7iris
Characters/Pairings: Beau Bennett/Sidney Crosby/Evgeni Malkin
Rating: NC-17
Word Count: ~12,000
Warnings: Dubious consent of the sex-pollen/in-heat variety.

Summary: Beau has a good feeling about this season.

Notes: I have this thing where I can do a lot of world-building and come up with (I think) some pretty nifty concepts, but I'm pretty shit at coming up with actual plot to go with? 7iris did a beautiful job of taking my incoherent ramblings and snippet of a scene and making something absolutely fabulous with it. Please go read it and leave her allllll the feedback, because my silly little prompt barely does her work justice :)


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faces of the becket brothers and Mako Mori superimposed over a dark ocean

Author: gyzym
Fandom: Pacific Rim
Rating: not rated
Length: 27:15

Summary: Here, it's simple: you and me and your dead brother are all swimming in the sick stillness of the water after the storm.

Notes: When I first read the fic it had this beautiful lyrical quality and I just had to heard it aloud. I don't think I quite did it justice, and there's some problem with the audio, but I'm been sitting on it for a couple months now, and I need to get it posted.

Link to Fic: On the Archive
Download Link (Right-click, Save-As): Here
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So accidentallymelted's been incredibly patient and indulgent with me pestering her for prompts over on tumblr, and I thought I'd give her a bit of a gift in thanks :)

Expectations by accidentallymelted
Tortall, Kel/Dom
Grab it off MediaFire (because streaming is being a bitch tonight :/) (length: 2 minutes)
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Title: I Need a Hero

Author: Zarfe
Artist: unfrosted_cake/helenorvana

Rating: M
Word count: 44,212

Warnings/spoilers: Dub-con, mind control, coercive tendencies, extreme violence (I'm not kidding. Please skip this if that stuff bothers you), child endangerment, torture, swearing, sex scene, talk about sex.

Summary: SUPERHERO AU, Gabriel Landeskog is an evil psychic looking for a challenge. He thinks that the well known Heroes aren't up to the task of fighting him, so he goes out into the world to find someone he could make into a Hero to combat him. Little does he know that while he's not paying attention to the Heroes, they are forming up to catch him.

Super powers, completely AU in the fact that the city, the world, is entirely different than our own. All is described in detail.

Notes: NOT A CRACK FIC! Pairings and characters are all detailed and fully fleshed out. The overview of what the world is like was based loosely on E.Y.E: Divine Cybermancy, and are only altered vaguely to fit my needs.

Link to fic: LJ


Link to Download Podfic: On MediaFire
Podfic Length: 31 minutes
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It has been a fucking long semester, I have one week left, and this has been a miserable week to top it all off. Started last Sunday night when I took a brutal fall on my scooter (yes, I have a foot-pedal scooter, leave me alone, it is awesome): nasty scrapes on my right forearm and upper arm; deep, deep bruising on my upper arm on top of that (which has finally gotten to the point of looking worse than it hurts, but it's a nasty mess of yellow and purple and ick); more deep nasty bruises on my right shin just below the knee... I was going at a pretty fair clip and tried to bunny-hop up onto the sidewalk (which I do all the time, it's easy), missed, and face-planted, skidded across the concrete, and smashed into the decorative brick. Yeah. Then I've been sick since Wednesday when I had to shoot six assignments this weekend (yes, six - I am taking three shooting classes this semester and that is the biggest mistake of my life). Then Thursday I get hit by my own car, so now I'm bruised all over, I re-sprained my ankle, and I'm just miserable.

Here, have some links (mixed bag of awesome, odd, and rage-inducing):

5 Astronauts More Badass Than Any Action Movie Hero

6 Board Games That Ruined It for Everyone

4 Things Politicians Will Never Understand About Poor People

5 Things It Turns Out You Were Right to Hate About School

The 5 Creepiest Ways Major Companies Are Watching You

6 Mind-Blowing Things Nobody Taught You About Black Holes

Incredible Light Trails from Space

38 Maps You Never Knew You Needed
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What is your favorite beverage?
My usual answer is root beer, but it occurs to me that's not actually the case. My favorite beverage is, in fact, 2% milk.

If you had to go without liquid for an entire day, would you drink water or your favorite beverage when liquids were available again?
It depends on what the weather's been like or what I've been doing that day, but 7 times out of 10 it'll be milk, not water.

What is your favorite food?
I don't really have one? I'll say steak-and-potatoes.

If you had to go without food for an entire day, what would be the first food you'd eat when food was available again?
It also depends, but mainly on what I've craving at that point. Anything from cereal to cookies to crackers to lasagna. I've done all of them, many many times.

How would you react if both your favorite food and your favorite beverage were available to the public but were somehow unattainable to you?
Sulk and pout. And whine, and beg, and rage. It would not be pretty, or dignified.
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(Yes, I do still plan to do a "Hi, it's been a while!" post, but that probably won't be for another few weeks yet.)

I will be graduating with and Associates of Applied Sciences in Digital Photography at the end of this semester, although I'll technically have to take one more class over the summer. I had the same professor for my beginning and intermediate classes, and he always started us off with a scavenger sort of assignment. In Beginning, it was literally a scavenger hunt: we had ten objects indoors and ten objects outdoors that we had to find and photograph, including a statue, a toilet, and ice cream. In Intermediate it was a little more interesting: the theme was "Time," and we had to take five photographs that represented hard times, pastime, summer time, wasted time, and just time. I interpreted hard times and time rather liberally, and while I liked the final images and felt they related to the prompts, he was apparently aiming for something a little more literal.

But I really loved the concept of interpreting prompts creatively. So, as if three of the most difficult photography classes all in one semester wasn't enough on my plate, I also signed up for [community profile] snapshot_bingo for the spring. Here's my card below:

Reading Door H Weather Six
Sound R Meat Sign Perfect
Awesome ComfortableFree Space Clouds Portrait
Yellow Plate Dim O Late
Rainbow Father P Home B
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lots of random me-stuff under here )
  • On a non-fandom front, I've been plugging along with my photography degree. This semester we're doing portraiture, which should be awesome because yay portraits! I love portraits! But is in fact not awesome for two key reasons: my professor from last semester that I absolutely despise also teaches this class, which I was bitterly disappointed to discover because I took this class specifically thinking it wasn't taught by him; and we apparently can't reuse models. Given that I know all of seven people in Las Vegas who might be willing to pose for me, and there are fourteen assignments plus the final series, this is a bit of a predicament for me. Bearing that in mind, if there is anyone in the Las Vegas area who would like to do a little bit of modeling, please contact me, and we can maybe work something out? Particularly anyone who has unusual pets (meaning anything not cats or dogs, or hamsters/guinea pigs), like snakes.
  • Some samples of what I've done:
an angled head-and-shoulders portrait of a read-haired young woman on a dark background portrait of a young woman in a white patterned sundress sitting on a bench against a grey background portrait of a young latino woman in a brilliant green headscarf, holding it close to her cheek

Also, my Identity series can be seen here.

Virtual human development game

free human development game


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Friday Five for 9/7/12: Sports!

What is your favorite sport to watch?

It depends on if we're talking normal sports or sports I only watch during the Olympics. Normal? (American) Football. Everything else just seems too slow-moving. (Yes, I realize the hypocrisy in saying that when an hour-long game takes three hours to play, but I love the commentary, shut up.) Olympic-wise? In the summer it's gymnastics, and in the winter the ice-skating.

What is your favorite sport to play?

I've done pretty much everything there is to do in soccer. I've played, I've refereed, I've even helped coach. (I was terrible at it: never put me in charge of people.)

Favorite sports team?

New Orleans Saints. I first got into football while they were the reining Superbowl champions. Plus I just liked their story. Honorary mention to Seattle Seahawks (closest I've got to a home team).

Favorite sports player?

Right now, gonna go with Gabby Douglas. Rock on, you magnificent lady.

Why do you enjoy watching/playing your favorite sport?

It's a new way to hang out with my dad, an uneasy sort of common ground with my brother-in-law, and fascinating to watch.

Friday Five for 9/21/12: Cell phones!

When did you get your first cell phone?

Erm....sometime either freshman or sophomore year of high school? We needed them to coordinate rides and such.

Do you have any special ring tones, if so what are they?

Closest I get is my main ringtone, which is the Sherlock theme a la music box.

Does your phone have a camera?

Yes, which makes grocery shopping convenient. "You are being terribly specific and I won't remember: let me take a picture so I'll recognize it when I see it!"

What kind of phone do you have now?

Android Sidekick. I wanted the keyboard, since I hate touch-screen keypads.

What carrier do you use?

We're on T-Mobile right now, I think?
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I'm about to be without internet for five days - it's telling that this is the only thing that really frets me about taking a weekend off during school, not skipping a class to do it. But yes, going up to Lake Tahoe for the weekend! \o/ I will have a full day Monday when I get back, too - 9+ hour drive, then straight to school for an hour and a half of dance. I might just skip the dance :P
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I ... am not even going to look to see how long it's been since I last updated. It will probably make me weep with shame. But I am alive! I just committed the cardinal sin of creating a tumblr, and have been super-engrossed ever since. It just suits me inordinately well - words are hard! (Words are very hard - a single DW entry can take anywhere from three hours to three days, even if it's only two paragraphs long.)

Um, what all have I done with myself? Finished spring semester, got in another (inevitable) fight with the Financial Aid department re: loans again (although YAY, PELL GRANTS!), took summer off beyond the English 101 class, ordered a new computer, and fell completely and utterly into White Collar and Teen Wolf. There's a slapdash update for you, then. :D

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